on learning to code...

When i was little, maybe about 5 years old i used to wonder if everyone saw colors differently as there would be no way to describe "pink" other than a mix of white and red. the whole concept of colors and their meanings could be different to everyone, as they might see humans with purple faces and the ocean as bright green. I'll never know.
but while i was wondering that, i wondered if someone could ever create an entire language, dicitonary and all, where words are defined by other words, but the language could never be understood, because all of the definitions of this language are written in that language. well wonder no more, that language is called ruby and its dictionary is that of programming terms.
Though i've actually been able to explain ruby to quite a few people and get many interested in it, i have been doing some of my code with help as tackling a programming language as strange as ruby and doing something as complex as i'm trying to is not easily executed in 8 weeks.
i now have a deep enough understanding of ruby that i know what it's doing, where my code is going, what is called where it saves etc etc etc. now i'm trying to make friends wiht my code. trying to speak its language in a way that it understands. but it feels like i'm trying to talk with my mouth taped shut (note: i actually have no idea what its literally like to talk with my mouth taped shut and hope that i never find out) i can make vague statements without really making sense, or any sort of real communication.
I could draw you a picture of exactly what i want the code to do. explain it in plain english and/or choppy german but the second i try to put it in ruby code i am all thumbs, or rather all wrong commands.